Friday, September 25, 2009

The angels that watched over Lil Will







I am two weeks into the chaplain's program at Children Medical Center. On Monday September 21st I was at the Dallas hospital. We went on a tour of the hospital with our fellow chaplains and we visited all the ICU's. I saw all the parents in with there precious children and I saw some children whose parents were not there. One of the chaplain noted that a lot of the children had no one in there rooms with them. Our trainer explained that the children in the ICU are usually there for a long time and some parents can not take off from work or they have other children etc... I fully understood where she was coming from. Lil Will was able to get our undivided attention and love and I believe a parent who loves their child wants to be there every waking moment but it is not feasible for some. To those parents who have children in the hospital and can't be there as much as you like, make every moment you spend with them intimate and special. Make sure they know your voice and your scent. A child knows the voice of their parents above any other voice. Do not allow guilt to consume you because of your other responsibilities. Know that there are chaplains and nurses that are sent by God to watch and guard your child.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

My Promise to Lil Will


I promise our son before he left that I would fulfill the mission God gave to me. When I was in the fourth grade we had to draw a picture on career day of what we wanted to be when we grew up. I drew a pastor. So I have known for a long time what my assignment was but I was too scared to walk in it. In 1990 while in Iraq I came to a realization. I guess a crisis will do that :) Anyway, this was a time in my life I decided to be more dedicated to the Lord. I decided to take our relationship more serious. Since then I have had more heartaches, more disappointments, more fears, and more failures than I have had previously before I took our relationship serious but at the same time I have had more victories, more joy, and more accomplishments. I shared with my wife either before we got married or shortly after, that there would be something major that would test the authencity of our relationship. For that moment Lil Will was the test. Not only did it test the authencity of our relationship to each other but the authencity of our relationship with our heavenly Father. Things could have went south real quick if it was not for God's committment to us. I feared having a relationship with Will because I knew the possibility of him leaving us but the Lord would not allow me to live in fear and hold back a genuine love for our son. So I say to the men who may read this. The authencity of your heart and commitment will be tested. The first relationship that will always be tested is your relationship with the Father from which all other relationships will grow or wither. I promised our son I would be obedient to our Father and fulfill the call. What have you promised? What do you need to fulfill?

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Today is one of those days


Today is one of those days I think about what it would be like to be at home with Will. As I sit here in the presence of God. I sense His arms around me with Will at His side as I wonder what it would be like to hold my lil one. Be blessed Father by the obedience of your sons. I love you!